DA Joke
Se cierra el telón.
Se abre el telón.
Se cierra el telón.
Se abre el telón.
Se cierra el telón.
¿Cómo se llama la obra?
¿Quién es el idiota que está jugando con el telón?
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
And my scars remind me that the past is real... I tear my heart open just to feel!!
Haha hmmm I don't have much to say but, dunno, I wanted since I made this blog to make a post in english, now that I can I have nothing to say hahaha, well, yes, but isn't.. well I sometimes want to be a robot, why? because.. feelings are obsolet, they aren't useful in "life", you don't get anything using them, suffering only weakens you, even loving does. If at least sometimes I could get rid of them and focus only in the "important things", everything would be a lot easier, as the title of this blog says: "My weakness is that I care too much", I know I'm not the onlyone, but I also know what comes, so I only desire that, well.. some things didn't affect me that much and to that xtremes, people's feelings ruling my life is not such a pleasant idea for me, disgusting; it's ok to love people, right? it's good to care about people, right? it's normal to be informed about a situation, right? but iack, not like that, the idea is horrible, terrifying. Weak mind? Maybe. Weak personality? Most likely. Crap, I hate nonsense... and do you know what's the worst part? I'm succeeding in that, leaving some feelings at a side of the road feels SO good, Maybe I didn’t explode as it was expected, even I expected that, but guess what? It didn’t happen, I discoverd a better... and funnier way, haha, now I’m here, happy, free, myself, and stronger than ever hahahahaha, I now feel the power to control and not be controlled, to succeed in what I want, a big weight? yes, but I'm going through it succesfully, so, what does it matters? and well, I'm paying a big cost for that, even my nails are paying for it xD but I don't care now.
And as my good friend Sweeney said "I'm alive at last, and I'm full of joy!!!"
About feelings... I don't know, what are those feelings you are writing and thinking about, but that's the point why are you thinking about them? I mean the more you think the more you get anxious, tire of feeling that ting you don't like or whatever... Live with what you are and with who you are, defects are something everbody has and if you are conscious of yours of course you can change them, if yu really what to, but your feelings is something you can't pretend to change, I know sometime we wish it were that way, but is not. Me, for instance..., sometimes I feel I hate my dad, and I tell myself I shouldn't feel that but I do... and now that I'm not angry at him I think I don't hate him, should I torture myself thinking about wether I hate him or not?
I don't know... I think that this entry makes me compare you with Ravenbolt, thinking to much about stuff to torture the brain and at the end what? nothing... take it easy, just live, that's it